careless excretions hurled offhand into a big pile; compost.

ungh tonight kicked ass. party here, lots of chatting + many an acquaintance made while murdering an innocent bottle of andre extra dry. 3, possibly 4 lap dances, with around 3 fairly attractive girls who wanted to screw hitting on me and trying to procure such services. some dancing too w/ my favorite.  man i feel like a pimp. a thoroughly ethical and reasonable pimp.  and lap dance 3 or 4 (delivered by the jesus chick) was all up under my shirt and kissing/biting my neck while we had a conversation about why i wasn't really ready to accept jesus as my savior + religion is a pile of crap. ungh i was so witty. holy shit. and anyway she may or may not have given some guy head in the upstairs bathroom previously - because someone sure did and depending on the timing of those events it could be quite possible - so i'm quite glad i didn't let her kiss me on the lips, as was the implied conclusion of her while-grinding ubutton-shirt, kiss chest, kiss neck, kiss cheek maneouvres (thx brits!) but instead it was "jesus probably didn't have super powers." god i love this place, and i love being a tease. and later i hung out w/ my roomies friend who DJs and smoked up w/ him and playedsome tracks for him, one of which (trampador 2005, which mike thinks might be my best song ever) he's gonna spin @ europa this thurs, and said he'd play which is fucking awesome. unfortunately its thurs when the 80s night w/ haircut posse is, but the night is 21+ so chances of me getting in, even w/ him pulling a few strings are low.  shrug.  he also said he knows another dude who would really like some of my tracks and want some to spin.  god what a sweet night.  and tmrw im gonna get up at 12 and get a shit load of work done and on monday get a fucking internship because action is required in order to kick some ass.  haha guh im such a tease/very witty and appealing and un-harsh rejecter to suitresses.  as i'm not cuasing any of them suffering and actually was seriously considering sleeping w/ at least my facorite of the group, who gave a very hot, well delivered and sensual lap dance #,1 and i later danced with her, i really am not sure if i was able to maintain a socially acceptable level of turgidity.  wow what a body, very lean, sporty, 18  - and single too. next time i am gonna be all over her yo.  am in fact somewhat regretting not taking her upstairs tonight, but hey nothing wrong with not hooking up on the first night. these things can take time! plus its fun to be hard to get/a tease.  yet w/ angsty homework/school looming + amalia seeming a bit down in the dumps i recall the ring inscribed by some dude in the bible who was asked to write something that would make both a rich and poor man cry: "this too shall pass." now hows that for ennui, eh. well, to reduce any potential ego-damage to the jesus chick, i think next time i'm gonna have to tell her that i'm not likely to be in the mood to have sex w/ her anytime soon, if my lack of response under lapdance+groping conditions tonight or my hopefully accompanied retiring-to-chambers next party doesn't put the point across. or you know hm, i could just let her and her friends 'run train' on me or do them in the butt or something. just kidding!